Urgh after such a long time I am sexually frustrated! 4 months it has been, which is the longest period I have been without love making, fornicating, fu**ing or how ever you want to put it but the fact is that this is the longest period I've had nought for the past 9 years! My goodness... free sex anyone?

The slight attraction you get from the opposite sex who you also happen to find attractive gives you that excitement like you had as a teenager, it gets you all giggly and coy inside pondering whether they really like you or not? But you play it more cool when you're older. That applies to me anyway.
I play it so cool that I start acting ice cold towards them which is giving the wrong signs. Dammit me! Must learn how to flirt properly. Lack of practice here so help and advice is definitely needed.

It's misty out. And it's that Autumn breeze and the sound of rustling leaves that's making me want to be wraped up warm and close around a lovers arm. But nay, it'll remain as a day dream for now.

Sad and lonely times. It's funny. I think it but I don't really feel it. Does this mean I'm really a cold hearted person? I like the idea of romance but I'm not really seeking it at the moment maybe I've had it for such a long time I've become almost untouched by emotions of love. Maybe this is how I'm dealing with my breakup and how I know best to cope with heart ache which is to just not feel emotion at all!
Who knows but it is sad none the less. I hope this won't last and permanently make me this way. I bloody hope not. It took me a while to become a lovey dovey person.


I do miss it... The company of a lover as well as being a best friend.


Thoughts of a long haired man with ginger beared. Sexy.
On that note I have been particularly attracted to hairy men lately not in a the form of a neanderthal but the long haired kind and specially ginger at that.
Something like this man....

Johnny Harrington you are my current crush.


My boyfriend... my ex-boyfriend (still need to get used to that) kinda had a ginge beard. To be honest he had some special hybrid facial hair with blonde and brunette mixed in there too.
Anyway are there any other ladies who feel attracted to this kind of man? It's one of those secret crushes that you don't really want to mention to anyone. Embarrasing crush, that's what it is. So yeah I have been drawn towards that colour of late. There must be something in the air or something I've been eating for the past few months that my attaction to this usually outcasted group has grown.
I guess it's one of those things that just became subconsciously instilled in my everyday life until I became to really like it. I loved M.I.A's video Born Free which was later on created into a full length French film 'Our Day Will Come' with Oliver Barthelemy, it's all about ginger revolution! A must see if you are a suppressed ginger or a ginger lover like me.

What does LOVE mean?

I've experienced one true Love and that ended quite recently. That Love of 8 and a half years will always be my first and so far the only one. To me love completes you and only having understood that in its absence.

Young Love: me and G**** here only a few months being in-love.

Just came across this... What does love mean, described by 4-8 year old kids.
I find this post really sweet and reminds me again how I love a child's mind, its innocence, this is when thoughts and feelings are still very pure. Unfortunately as we grow older we go through the bad experiences in life where we just learn to live with it. That's when as an adult it over shadows our innocence, our feelings and thoughts get complicated and we forget to just be straight forward and honest.

I shall start sharing my randomness from today. It's a special date so I thought I should start something to commemorate the time.
My wish is to travel. See and experience the world. Last night was the full moon and it reminded me of when I saw it last on my travel to Morocco. Pic above was taken when I stayed in Dades between the mountains. Freaking cannot wait to go again one day. Spend more time between the mountains and in the dessert and maybe find myself a Nomad husband!
So make a wish guys, it's the 11th day of the 11th month on the 11th year of the 20th century, if only it was the 11th Century that would have been mind-boggling! (I'm actually posting this on the 11th minute pass the 11th hour GMT timezone!)