General stuff & Four Leaf Clover

Yesterday being a Sunday I spent the afternoon with a friend for tea by the canal and briefed her on my JP situation and how annoyed I was. Not only that, I was also returning her laptop she kindly let me borrow as mine malfunctioned.
C******** tells me that he was totally rude but also thinks he might be scared. Scared of what?!
"I'm not trying to be on his side but I just don't understand it! If he acts all nice, says all these things, sends all these poems and still having you around showing interest then why does he act that way??"
"He's just weird!!" I explained.
"Hmm, he is isn't he!?" Christina agreed.
She knows this because she's experienced his weird 'social disability' (as I call it).
He added her on Facebook and yes they've met once when I took her to one of his gigs but after a few messages his last messaged was
"oh cool, I was just thinking about some old photos I took in Thailand while watching this" 
of which he attached a video link of Eckhart Tolle- The Dao De Ching talking about life and awakening etc which personally I find the subject of this talk quite interesting but not Eckhart he creeps me out.

"My thoughts are my saviour"

Tea and dessert at Towpath Cafe

Afterwards I went to have a meeting with A**** who funnily enough is my friend's other half, well ex other half, the couple who I've mentioned had just recently split up after 7 and half years!! It wasn't awkward at all for me to meet him seeing that S** is one of my best friends. They are at this heartache stage of their break-up so I understood and I'm not biased to either side. We spoke about it of course giving my advice and keeping it mutual because we were all in long term relationships I could somewhat advice from my experience.

We met to discuss a project where I'm helping him with design so more tea and dessert had. Caught up on what he's been up to jetsetting around Europe etc. He's lucky he has all that to distract him whilst S** is on her lonesome away from home and friends. Oh come to think of it she's actually travelling a bit so that should keep her distracted and need to skype date with her soon to see if she is okay and keep her updated on my 'love' situation!

Well as we finished our meet at Beyond Retro Cafe we made our way and stoped at this one shop called Pelican and Parrots, hahaaa funny thing. As I was browsing I saw this shoe paper weight on top of a small pocket like book. I was interested in what it was so as I moved the paper weight from it I was greeted with an engraved cross on the leather cover so it was a black sacred pocket book...

It reminded me of JP of course and then when I opened where the bookmark was...

there was a lucky four leaf clover!

This is funny because when I dreamt about him last (read here) it involved a four leaf clover. And how the next day of that dream as I was waiting for my friends by Camden Town Station a woman standing next to me had a four leaf clover on her phone screensaver! So I interupted her, explained my weird approach and reason for doing so and why I wanted to take a photo of it...

Lovely Spanish lady she was. We chated for a while as our set of friends were all late. Says she grew them at home.

"Where's that?" I asked.

"In Madrid. This is my home." as she pointed at the picture.

"You grew them?!?" from this reaction I was more saddened that she was defeating its 'one of a kind' speacialness.

"Yeah you can buy them at this shop near Madrid and they grow like this. I've never seen them sold anywhere else before. Only at that shop."

So I enquired about it if they have a website I could buy from.

"I don't know, maybe... check. If you want I can send you some!"

"Aw that'd be so cool!! Yes pls!"

Anyway we swapped details I gave her my card but unfortunately that was the eve I lost my phone! So I'm hoping she will get back to me at some point.

She was here for 3 months she does performance and acting and works as a club promoter. I mentioned too what I did and chatted what we were up to that evening. They were going to watch the football match.

"I am so happy yesterday when Spain won four to zero!" she gestured with her fingers.

"I am a big football fan!"

Clearly she was.

I mentioned if she and her friend had time later they could join us at the gig I was attending. Her friend who lived in Camden arrived and was introduced, said our goodbyes. Shortly after my friends arrived.

Revelations: Prt 1

Okay so today. Apart from my usual busy self. I was possibly meeting up with JP but it didn't happen- yet again. He was suppose to let me know by the afternoon if he can or can't but didn't even contact me. Which kinda left me waiting, well I was busy anyway but I just don't like it when people don't keep their word or at least let me know if they change their word but nothing.

Why am I making the least bit of effort with this guy?? I don't think he has any care at all about me and I seem to be kinda the one chasing him. I must be a fool!

Hmmm. Anyway yes I am annoyed with myself for even giving him time and effort even doing this blog and thinking about him is just too much effort I'm putting in...

I'm gonna have a little rant now about his annoyingness. Okay well most of the time he never gets back to my messages. It's as if he ignores me specially when it comes to FB!! The thing is I think he is very much a charmer, he likes to flirt and get girls attention and he doesn't seem to entertain them publicly. Perhaps that's his problem, an attention seeker or just needy. He only entertains me via personal text or private messages but never in public i.e. Facebook or even face to face in public especially with a group of people we know. Now if he does that with me I guess he does the same with all the other girls that he might be entertaining right? Or am I just being over dramatic but I don't think I am. My gut feelings are pretty good and I feel this in particular!

In fact I shall give you an example of why I think this is true. I had a random meet with two ladies that he has 'tried' with. (by the way my life is full of funny coincidences like these which I find really fascinating and love!) 

Revelation 1

First one was a girl he went on a date with whilst heavily flirting with me by saying nice things and sending lovely poems, y'know making feel special etc.

I went to a gig in Camden and I invited a few friends, one was a photographer friend of mine L*** and asked if he could bring a friend along and I was like

"Sure of course you can."

On the eve of the gig, me and a couple of other friends met them there and to my surprise L***'s friend was his ex V********. I have previously met her during a photoshoot and it was nice to see her after so long. So we said our usual...

"How are you? How are things?" etc etc.

As the evening progressed our conversation somehow led to the mention of The J***** band. I think I may have been the one who bought it up saying

"I was suppose to go to another gig this evening of my friends but I've already seen  them plenty of times so..."

"Who's that?" She asked.

"The J*****" I replied.

"The J*****?! Is the singer's name P***?"

"Yeah! Do you know them?!" 

V******** laughs and adds
"Yeah! I went out with him!"

At this point I was of course very intrigued!

"Hahaa" I replied cooly "Really?! Haha."

"So how did it go?" I enquired.

"Oh we saw each other a couple of times and just spent the day together wandering around and we went to this cafe and hanged out there!"

By this time I'm wondering when this was so...

"When was this?" I asked.

"A couple of weeks ago." 

Oh my goodness a couple of weeks ago!!! He was flirting with me exchanging some filthy messages the freaking cheek!

"It was nothing. I didn't feel anything there." V******** added.

"Ah okay. Haha so funny. What a small world!" I concluded.  
"Well I'll say hello!"

And so we carried on with the gig (which was really good by the way) or onto some other topic.

I really didn't want to pry, as much as I really wanted to!! I should've asked a couple more questions about it but at this point I was a little annoyed by JP. 

Home time came so me and L*** took the same direction so we had a little chat about this funny coincidence! He said

"Actually I knew you two had someone in common but obviously I didn't want to mention anything..."   

"Y'know that is really weird!" I said.

I think at this point because I have mentioned quite a bit about JP before to L*** and how I liked him and that he sends me these nice things. L*** perhaps felt my little worry that I have found this out so he added

"Yeah but V******** says she didn't feel anything towards him like there's no chemistry."

"Yeah, that's really interesting!" Was all that I could muster! Keeping it nonchalant.

I seem to remember the weeks before this evening when L*** and I had a meeting about a project, we got talking about love life, this was when I spoke about JP and he spoke about his potential dates. We also talked about our exes, his V******** and my G****. Chatted about having both gone through long term relationships. That was when he also mentioned about V******** "going on some date next week" which now I think that would have been the date with P***! What funny things.

Also L*** tells me that he was actually invited to The J***** gig that evening because L***'s last date was with the lady who owned or organizes the venue they were performing in!

"Haha. Really?! No way!" I replied with amazement.

"Yeah that would have been really interesting!" 

"Hahaa yeah! We should've gone and made some weird awkward shit happen!" 

Imagine all of us in one room all intertwined with one another linked by our wandering hearts.

We had a chuckle about the funny small world we live in.

After a couple of weeks or so later I brought this up with JP during one of our skype chats.

"We have a mutual friend!" I hinted.

"Who's that?"

"Her name's V**."

"Val who?...

      Is her name V******* from Syria?"
"Yes. V********."

and at that moment he disappears. Poof! Like magically disappears! I waited for sometime, I was online for a few more hours as I thought he may have gotten disconnected but nope... he just went. I guess he couldn't face that fact or man enough to deal with it and chat about it!! And he never mentioned this anymore afterwards, not about V******** nor apologising about being cut off! 
This sort of thing frustrates me from people and I've noticed that trait about him, when there is anything awkward, instead of him dealing with it he just ignores it or you. It's not a very nice way to interact, it's disrespectful. I don't think he realises this, which is a great shame.